Today marks the 4 year anniversary of the day my world stopped as I knew it. 2 days after my sons birthday and the day after his birthday party, my sister and I had to make the one decision that no one should ever have to make – to take Mom off of life support.
It has not gotten easier as many said it would, my heart still aches, my brain still wonders “what if” and nothing will ever be the same. This “hurt” is one that lasts………forever…….
I miss you Mom more than words could ever express!
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Di,
I feel your words and understand them as if they were my own. I know today is going to be rough for you…I’ll be thinking of you.
I know you do honey – A friend just told me that the dull aches may remain but in time the sharp edges of pain subside, I hope she is right *hugs*
Oh honey, I’m really sorry for you loss. I know exactly how you feel. Having lost my dad almost 20 years ago I agree with you that no amount of time ever completely heals the pain of losing a parent.
For me it really helps knowing that our parents are looking down on us from heaven and smiling at the the legacy the left us about being model citizens and good role models not only for our families but within the community as well.
Knowing that the the love and compassion our parents had for life and bestowed upon us individually to be caring and loving individuals really helps me get through the tough times.
Even though I don’t know you personally, I think its very safe to say that I know your mother would be super proud of the woman you turned out to be: kind, compassionate loving and a good role model /mother for your kids and a great friend/partner for your DH. Attributes which any parent would proud to have in their child
Time hasn’t made our losses any easier but knowing our parent’s love will be with us forever really does help
Godbless you hon 
Thank you so much for this – sometimes it’s easier to dwell on the sadness and forget those things you pointed out – I can only hope my parents are proud of me for who I am today…… thank you again
Dear Di,
There are no words…your loss is just that, it’s yours. You feel it and you deal with as only you can. Please be proud of yourself for the woman & great Mom that you are. You have to just hope and pray that in some way your Mom is with you and is so very proud.
…Thinking of you today…**Big Hugs**
Gina
Thank you Gina – I feel her around me, she better be, I talk to her and if she isn’t there, people might think I am crazy
Joking aside, thank you again, means a lot that people care so much.
take comfort in knowing she waits to see you in heaven & loves you still, I know thats my comfort for my mom as well, I miss her dearly. God Bless you
Thank you so much Julie *hugs*
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